Autumn and I decided to go for a walk together.
I said - Aren't we lucky, we don't have anywhere that we have to be.
Autumn was silent.
We walked for a long time and I remembered how Autumn can be a dramatic toddler sometimes.
Autumn said - I can't stay here. With you. I'm sorry.
Autumn left me last Thursday at 4.55pm. I felt the cold of the abandoned, but kept walking. We've been through this before but I'm not sure how many more goodbyes I have left in me. So I put my scarf on and walked underneath determined trees and kept pace with men with satchels and resolved that in fact it is for the best.
After a 5 hour walk I'd left Clapham for Arsenal. Autumn was fading. I felt that there was someone else just around the corner who may turn out to be more reliable.